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callistahogan) wrote2009-05-28 09:38 pm
callistahogan) wrote2009-05-28 09:38 pm
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Writer's Block: Significant Change
[Error: unknown template qotd] This is a very sensitive topic for me, because the answer is most definitely yes. I'm not proud of this fact, but I have tried to change myself to stay in a relationship. It was more than a year ago now, but I still remember. I will never forget, and I am not proud of it.
I tried to push my faith in the background. I tried to always agree with the person I loved (did I love him? It's hard to tell, now. I like to believe I did), for fear of hurting him. I walked on eggshells, and ended up succumbing and making him happy, instead of making me happy.
Needless to say, it didn't work -- and the way that particular relationship ended still haunts me to this day.
I tried to push my faith in the background. I tried to always agree with the person I loved (did I love him? It's hard to tell, now. I like to believe I did), for fear of hurting him. I walked on eggshells, and ended up succumbing and making him happy, instead of making me happy.
Needless to say, it didn't work -- and the way that particular relationship ended still haunts me to this day.