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Guys. I need help.
Mar. 6th, 2009 04:19 pmI broke up with my boyfriend on Wednesday.
Because I really don't feel like going through the whole stupid mess again (I'm close to tears already without thinking about what else happened), I'll just copy and paste what I wrote to a friend in Facebook a few days ago:
Relationship was very good at the beginning, with us holding hands and everything at the movies, rumors surfaced where people thought he liked someone else, the rumors were (seemingly) proven false, this happened twice, I found out on Friday that he was a Satanist, on my way to the caf to get a Poptart Tamika came up to me and said that he broke with me when he didn't, at lunch he showed me this song that was all "Hail, Satan, Satan will help us and enlighten us, blah, blah, blah," in gym Tamika told me more about how he's liked her for a while and how he said that he had broken up with me when he hadn't and how he tried to separate her and her boyfriend so they could be together, I tried to break up with him and he ignored me (twice), and swore and cursed and ranted about me to Tamika, and wouldn't let me talk to him. Basically, he's good-for-nothing, pathetic and doesn't deserve me at all. I haven't broken up with him yet, but I will.
That was Tuesday.
The next day, I went up to my ex and broke up with him without too much pain, saying "It's over. Entirely," and then just walking away. I felt guilty, mad, depressed, worried, etc., about the break-up, but thought things would eventually just blow over.
Unfortunately, that wasn't to be.
Either that day or the day after (the days blur together), one of the people who first got us together said that the reason he had been so rude and obnoxious to me Tuesday was because his sister had died that day four years ago, and he was feeling upset/hurt/angry about it. I didn't say anything, or if I did, I didn't say whether I believed him or not. Even though I did.
However, today, during gym, when I was about to change up, someone else (the person who had told me that he had "broken up" with me) said that someone had told him that I hadn't believed him when he said his sister died, and is now angry at me. I don't even want to know what he thinks of me, honestly. He probably thinks I'm a nasty little you-know-what.
But I can't let him have that impression of me, I want to make things right and maybe even be his friend even though things will never go beyond that, so I have to do something. I tried apologizing before school was over, but he just walked away and is really angry at me.
So... guys, please help.
How can I make this right? I'm not that kind of person, and I need to talk to him.
Because I really don't feel like going through the whole stupid mess again (I'm close to tears already without thinking about what else happened), I'll just copy and paste what I wrote to a friend in Facebook a few days ago:
Relationship was very good at the beginning, with us holding hands and everything at the movies, rumors surfaced where people thought he liked someone else, the rumors were (seemingly) proven false, this happened twice, I found out on Friday that he was a Satanist, on my way to the caf to get a Poptart Tamika came up to me and said that he broke with me when he didn't, at lunch he showed me this song that was all "Hail, Satan, Satan will help us and enlighten us, blah, blah, blah," in gym Tamika told me more about how he's liked her for a while and how he said that he had broken up with me when he hadn't and how he tried to separate her and her boyfriend so they could be together, I tried to break up with him and he ignored me (twice), and swore and cursed and ranted about me to Tamika, and wouldn't let me talk to him. Basically, he's good-for-nothing, pathetic and doesn't deserve me at all. I haven't broken up with him yet, but I will.
That was Tuesday.
The next day, I went up to my ex and broke up with him without too much pain, saying "It's over. Entirely," and then just walking away. I felt guilty, mad, depressed, worried, etc., about the break-up, but thought things would eventually just blow over.
Unfortunately, that wasn't to be.
Either that day or the day after (the days blur together), one of the people who first got us together said that the reason he had been so rude and obnoxious to me Tuesday was because his sister had died that day four years ago, and he was feeling upset/hurt/angry about it. I didn't say anything, or if I did, I didn't say whether I believed him or not. Even though I did.
However, today, during gym, when I was about to change up, someone else (the person who had told me that he had "broken up" with me) said that someone had told him that I hadn't believed him when he said his sister died, and is now angry at me. I don't even want to know what he thinks of me, honestly. He probably thinks I'm a nasty little you-know-what.
But I can't let him have that impression of me, I want to make things right and maybe even be his friend even though things will never go beyond that, so I have to do something. I tried apologizing before school was over, but he just walked away and is really angry at me.
So... guys, please help.
How can I make this right? I'm not that kind of person, and I need to talk to him.
